NDP have passed for so long already, then SLink recently wanted to publish something about NDP. MdmZ told me to write about NDP and I don't really know what she wants no matter how many times she have told me. JE did help me out in crapping, but I know XYun still can do a better job than me. Because she have more experience and understand NDP better, with the help of her...you know. Before MdmZ went away, I told her XYun she should have asked her to write about this thing, more experience.

"Ya, but she wasn't around so I asked you."

What the hell, I'm a spare tyre. :D, HA.
Another thing, MdmW marked me late twice when I wasn't even late a single time! I confronted her, told her, she tell me she'll check. But there was no news from her, SHE'S MISSING. Kidding, I argued with my Dad over this, isn't my problem. I remembered she collected MC from me when I wasn't even absent from school that day. I also remembered she called me Jasmine when my name is Janice. For your info, Jasmine is the girl sitting behind me, I mean register number. Heck, it's been so long yet she doesn't know my name. Does she even know I'm a Chinese and not Malay/Indian? I bet not! :D

I shall end this with a kiss from Jenny. (K)




People have been ignoring me nowadays. I mean, like whenever I talk there doesnt seems to be anyone paying attention. Especially during recess, when I've like nobody to talk to. Even my "once" close friend will be ignoring me and talking to her "new" close friend. Bloody shouting at me during art lesson, gfyus.

Sometimes even when I talk to the person right beside me, they're like deaf. I mean real deaf. They treat it as though I am talking to the wind.

I wanted that friendship back because I know it means a lot. But then, when other party treat it like it's nothing and plainly shouting and not knowing I was there at all, the feeling's terrible. I really don't know who is my real friends and who is not. When I thought they're real, they'll do something that make me hate them. I tried to accept someone who I hate, but who knows? They treat me as though I am transparent, so what for? I just hope I am(transparent) and is not in school anymore. Because no one really cares about me, don't they? I was just trying to find someone to talk to, why is it so difficult? I was like talking to her and she shouted at me cos' she's colouring? Would she ever treat her "new" close friend like this? No, I bet not.

Why can't they talk to me and trest me like other friends? This world sucks, but I am not going to die. Like I've said, I still have many other things to do. I can't accept how they're treating me, trash?

Let me ask you, who knows I am suffering and not being happy? Who knows? :(




One fact about me :

I'm afraid to look into the mirror sometimes.

Reason : I'll get a scare, because it'll be like seeing a ghost.




I've been having nightmares recently. Like I'm trapped or something, very scary. I dont know what's the cause of it, might be because of CreepyPasta or something else?

I dont remember offending anyone, I'm afraid right now.

I hate Sundays, I love Saturdays. :D I hate EVERY SUNDAYS!


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I find it rather amusing that some people come to my house and before even coming, they're asking my MUM to cook what and what? Thinking that this is a restaurant? It's not so funny, our house is not some kind of place for you to come and order food to eat ok. You want eat, come my house order pizza, you pay lah. Dont pizza lo, Mac also can. I dont mind, seriously.

If you're going to read this and complain to someone, I tell you not to ever come to my blog before I private my blog and you can't read and ask me any more questions.

Oh yes, not only did this incident happen once, but a number of times already.

Look.


It's really raining heavily right now, the thunders and lighting is really scaring me off. I think I have to off my laptop any time, because my dad always says the lighting will "SHOCK" the "dont know what thing" Yea, I believe. Then I will go and hide beside my Mum. :D

Let me tell you people something, CreepyPasta is really scary. Especially there's a video in youtube that can make people gorge our their eyes, and mail it to Youtube. My brother watched it, but nothing happen. I dare not watch it, like I've said I dont want to die so young. I still have dreams and aims and target to fulfill, I cant waste my life just like this. Really off topic already, back to topic. There's a number the videos that is named "O". (I shall not disclose the name, to prevent curious people like my brother. What if they find, THEN DIE?) I think one of them is real one, others are just scams/pranks made by lifeless kid. I am really scared right now, but phew my Mum is beside me.

Really, I am scared and I need company. I just hoped it rained this whole week, then we'll be having assembly in class. But, I dont think God want to do as I say, because he hate me?

:D







Look like duck right!




Look, it's so cute!

Full view please!

http://xmisstake.deviantart.com/art/meowww-94839070

http://hoschie.deviantart.com/art/hello-world-95338706

Not taken by me, BUT THEY LOOK SO FREAKING CUTE!

EDIT...

http://hoschie.deviantart.com/art/Stuffmaster-Herr-Hildezart-84902712

http://hoschie.deviantart.com/art/Wallpaper-Herr-Hildezart-pose-90561081

AHHH!!!



and many many many more! :P




One more..

I shall..

Think..

I care no further..



I sometimes wish I wasn't schooling because of problems and examinations. I just hope I was working with people I truly trust and someone who is really understand me well. I need help right now, who will be there to help?

Desires, I want to go to work, my aims and target. :x Would I even succeed with this rate I'm going?

Just not.

It's not over tonight.
Just give me one more chance to make it right.
I may not make it though the night
I wont go home with you.

still pondering, and missing.

I will never.

Thats the truth.

I detect sarcasm, I bet X is being sarcastic. Yeah, sure is.



Images are from the "rolling chair" Some might appear to be blur, because it's not attentive enough!



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If I managed to get what I want, life will be happy. I want, I need, I wish.

Click on this link for pretty clothes :

www.aloelipsaloelips.blogspot.com



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I love this song! นภพรชำนิ - อยากจะขอ

and แนน & สุนิส - าดาหลา

:P

















Again, that item wasn't in stock anymore. Shall I say, I'm so suay that I cant even get the backpack I want? Shhhh, nevermind.

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When I finally realised that life is so precious. Kind of regret when I said I wanted to die and all this things. 'Cos I came to realise that I have so many unfulfilled wishes left undone.

Example :

1. to the Getai(ohhhh.)
2. experimenting the effects that my camera could do but have not been discovered by me.
4. to(secret:D)
5. buying (secret:D)
3. also go to France, Paris and London.

I doubt the last wish could be done, reason being? I am not from the Rich family. If only my Dad owns Microsoft and if only my Mum was the Principal I could do all this. I already feel so .. I cant express it. I want to get things done on my own and not with the help from my Mum when I simply know how to do it. They just doesn't allow me to. If I were to bring up the topic about going overseas with my friends and is being planned by me, guess whats their reaction would be?



Shocked, then say No.

Sometimes, I'm really upset on how they took care of me. Over protective? Is that the word to use? Sometimes, I need them they dont really care. They cared at the wrong times, wrong things. Can't blame them, they always want the best for their kids, but didn't ask for our opinions first.


Yesterday wanted to watch Getai but it suddenly rained. Eeeeeeee, this year I wanted to catch them on the stage and capturing that moment..............know what?
No Getai at my area. Previously when I've got no interest in this, THEY HAVE IT EVERYDAY. Purposely one lo. I want to taking pictures with their lightings, but I cant get to somewhere far from my area. Why?

Because I dont know how to get to that area. :P

It's always like this. Before I went to sleep, I always think of what should I blog the next day, always have tons to write one. But when I'm sitting infront of this thing, my mind goes blank. Like how you studies for your exams, but when you saw the paper, you simply forget every little things that you studies. Then your mind can only try to think, but nothing came out of it. Same thing lo.













Wasn't too happy at how the pictures turn out, because of the grains or noise or dots, which ever you called it. The pictures doesn't seems to be very clear either, maybe I should just switch to 8megapixels? I'm currently using 16.9 and not 8 mainly cos' of the shape of how the pictures turn out.

8 is so square, while 16.9 is rectangle. It's much nicer that way and I am still wondering if 16.9 is the cause of the grain/noise/dots that's appearing on the pictures. I shall try and check later :D I still doesnt want to change, because I DONT LIKE IT SQUARE!

I shall continue my ranting next post or some other day. One more thing, I want to get out of Singapore! I kept wanting to go overseas for no reason. Staying home is really bored, trying to get out, quick quick. Holidays, or someone sponsor(sp?)me air tickets to countries like Paris, France or even Italy. Any kind souls around? I would thankyou really much, because I am friendly. :D


































As promised, I shall post up the pictures taken by PXY.

I finally got the top/bottom/overall I want! :D, say cheers!







As stated.




I want to grow up quickly, as stated in title.
LET ME BE 21 NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*ANNOYED*




I hasnt been feeling very happy for the past few weeks.

I lost my Ezlink yesterday, during the finale and the only friend who would help me find was Xiangyun. What about the rest? O.O? Taking pictures, look. <- Look.

I called the person to help and look for my Ezlink, she agreed. When I walked over, she was taking pictures. What the hell. Dont tell me anything if any of your items go missing, because I would continue taking pictures.

I am sad, WHY!?!?!?! >((( I cannot find any reason, why am I so sad!?!?!




People dont understand each other wll enough and they expect them to be like what they expect them to be. People dont even want to change themselves when other party expects them to be like what they want them to be. I dont know how am I going to say this, but I am really very sad now. Don't bother asking, why because I myself dont know why too. Awaiting 2:30 to come. Seems to be missing something. No one could really understand me, for I dont understand what I need and what I really want. I dont have a mind of my own, and kept asking opinions from others. I thought thats they right thing to do, because what I do might pissed them off if I dont ask for their opinions. If that something could make them get really fustrated, and I did it without asking them, wouldnt I get scolded? :( I dont want anyone to feel like they are abandon-ed. When someone does that to me, I wanted so much for revenge. I just cant, why. I want them to know, whats the feeling of being abandoned, and feeling lonely. Sometimes, being human is so difficult.
Like, how you really wanted that item, but someone bought it. You know, you will never have the chance to buy that similar item again, but you really want mahhh so how? You just have to keep missing it, dreaming that it will come to you? Aw, it wouldnt happen, because ugly people just doesnt have the privilege to wish, to hope, to think and to owe that particular thing you so wanted. People that are ugly always get abandoned, always do the wrong things and what they do will not be right. Do I have to receive commands from all of them?
Oh ye, anyone know which area around Tampinese has Getai. Been wanting to catch it for so long. No, I dont think so. Just recently.






Didnt manage to perform on sportdays, because I didnt went for the last choir practice. &shit, I didnt know we have to wear PE SHORTS. I wore PRCS rather than SSS. Shit.







I dont see any point complaining now, because it is all over. I can actually know what will happen tomorrow when I see MW's face. How black will it be, how will she reprimand us and such. And FYI, it's just the two of us who didnt wear our SSS pe shorts. Pathetic.

I cant say I've forgotten, it's just that no one told me about it. I hope someone will tell me what to bring, where, time and etc for tomorrow. For I fear I might forget about it. I kept thinking Today is Saturday, and Tomorrow is Sunday. I'm living in the future, not the present. Back to topic, I think whenever MW see us she will give us her icy gaze. (What I learn in English lesson. \m/)

Hey gaze is so icy that it can freeze me and give me goosebumps. I dont even know what I'm typing right now.

Bless me, I'm afraid I might bring the wrong things tomorrow. Something telling me that tomorrow will be bad and something bad is bound to happen to me. I need help, and happy national day singapore. I will love, or hate you sometimes someday somewhere. I think I will learn to tresure you, 'cuz I dont want Doomsday. Never wanted to die so young, wishes not fulfilled (sp?) how can you, the earth die so fast?!

Save the Earth, like whats written in my profile, you need to do your part. Everyone has a part to play in helping the Earth. Cut down on plastics, thats the only thing I know. But my parents just wont heed my advice whenever I tell them to use bags and not plastic bags. They says they need it for the rubbish bin.

I shall not complain further.

1. I got a scare from the thunder, and am trembling now.
2. I shall upload the choir tee design, though ugly and simple.
3. Atiqah designing too, I dont know how am I supposed to send it to Misswong.
4. I am wondering if I will get my Funpack.
5. Sportsday is simply a waste of time.
6. I shall keep this short and sweet. (:
7. I need, I want and I wish.
8. I've used brushes, for some. Dont know if it's allowed.
   
9. I dont know who the create-ter was, so I cant credit.

Edit,

Please comment.




You wore a green top and black skinnies, while other wore a uniform. Don't you think, that's uglier?

Xinyi took some picture using my camera, will be posting it up when uploaded into the computer. Wont be editing it.

I am busy busy busy, :(

Weather so hot!










I keep having this weird weird feeling. I dont know is it because I'm afraid/hated/doesnt wish to go to school or something else?

Yes, something else.

Monday will be going to "Dont-know-where". Hope it'll be fu, because I am not looking forward to it.

One more NDP and then we will have to face Mrlee again. I purposely make it so small, his surname/name is not worth being mention in my blog. Only make it so dirty. Well, NDP will be fun if I'm seated with my friends. If not, what fun does it has? I'm so anti social, and I dont know how to make friends. So, If I'm grouped with others I will be talking less than 100 words.

HOHOHO.

Yesterday "I saw, Atiqah and Innocent walk to hotel leh!" Lol, kidding. That was what I said to them. Which is not so funny, because Atiqah is just right infront of us.



I wont be updating my blog so often already, because next week I will have a very pack schedule which will cause me to stay back almost every single day. Remember, 090808 National day. Last rehearsal, I DONT WANT GO CHOIR LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Previously choir was very relaxing because that female teacher(which I only seen her once) was no at all Strict. Then I dont know what happen, I think one boy make me real angry and she just walked out. Then they find him as replacement, which is not a good choice. He is so impatient, so idiot, so irritating, so not humorous(sp?), so not good, so not kind, so not friendly, so not (add any words here).

Aiya, he is not good jiu dui liao lah!