I'm sitting right infront of the computer not knowing what to do. The game just lags the shit hell out of me. Whether the problem lies with the connection or the game itself, I don't care.

Currently I am alone at home now, a few different feeling arouse me. Anger, sadness but not happiness. Seriously, I'm not those who is happy-go-lucky person. I bear grudges against someone who make me feel so bad even after 2 years later I will still remember it. I wanted revenge, but I can't. I know it's not a good thing, by wanting to have revenge. I wanted, but couldn't do anything.
Simple because my brain don't work. It always work in the wrong time, wrong day. Me and my brain don't live in harmony, don't we?

I still don't know how the brain works. It really surprise me when I think of some questions on how things work. Sometimes a bit of stupid question will make you think real hard, making you think even harder for your school works.

During art, teacher bought books from some unknown place and showed it to the class. Well, of course I took the books titled : ? (well, it's just a book about dogs.)

Flipping through the pages really make me happy and also brighten up my mood. I was feeling really irritated, troubled and annoyed in the morning. But this book really gave me the energy to ramble to these friends about how cute this puppies are. All I mumbled was : Awwwww, so cute!!!!!!!!
I really can't resist myself away from dogs. I mean if the dog is cute, friendly and doesn't bark I won't be afraid of them. But if they are, I will. Most importantly, they must be free from those kind of insects that will bite their skin and make them itch. Most thailand's dog/puppies has it if you leave them to wander alone. What I heard was, there's this kind of medicine that can make them vanish and not come near to your puppy again. Quite expensive and it is for EXTERNAL usage. Please do not eat/drink it and it's strictly for dogs ONLY. Back to the book, the book was really interesting. I want all of them! I want I want, woohoo. Even those "sad" faces dog I also want. I have to repeat myself, I WANT ALL OF THEM. Really.

Ding dang mei.




i just hope someone can feel my misery.
i just hope someone will know that i feel worry for them.
i just hope tomorrow will be a better day.
i just hope pimples just wont grow on my face.
i just hope term 1 passes quickly.
i just hope i will be happy everyday.
i just hope everyone is safe.
i just hope for this and that.

but still, who knows my misery?
who knows what i'm going through?
i want to have a big cry.
i want ..

i just hope ..

(who will understand my misery?)

A funny heading i have to this post don't you think so. In a few days time, new year will be arriving and i have yet to buy my new year clothes. Or rather I don't intend to buy. Who cares anyways?

New year isn't the biggest problem I'm facing right now, but rather it's my face. I hate to look into the mirror now and then to see whether or not I have a freshly-popped pimple. They say this are not pimples, but clog pores or ...? It will obviously not heal until you stop schooling because of heat and excess oil and dirts I guess. Still I want it to heal.

I've been thinking of cheese fries for days but could not get my hand on it. Either I'm too busy or bloated to think of food.
Fact : If I am bloated and still I am thinking of food the vomit sensation comes.

Believe it or not, that's me.




Well, if that's the case I won't rather YOU NOT LINK ME. Bitch Bitch Bitch, go to hell!


New year is round the corner and I have yet to buy my new year clothes. I don't know if I should buy or not, because i am lazy to get out of home...

Mum is super busy this year because this ahma doesn't want to celebrate it else where. She have to cook alone, clean alone and her body's ache-ing and this ahma don't even care. I may be young, but I know what my mum is facing and how tired she is. But does they even care, no no no. don't bother to, don't want to. ahma fears other people suffer but not us, why? can anyone tell me why?

i must really protest for i fear next year mum would have to do all this again. i don't see the problem if we were to go to other people's house to have reunion dinner instead of having it at my house. wouldn't it be too boring to spent every year at the same place jut because those people are afraid of cooking, of cleaning and etc? we do have the same fears, don't we? so? ahma just don't understand!




I'm so absent minded that I left the seating plan in my art file and so I have to reprint again. (._.) My brother misunderstood me for.....Well, I just happen to paused there and.... Oh well, no use bringing it up again. I know he's just kidding around with me.

Sometimes I just don't understand why must they expect the Manager to know who is absent and who is present, to collect this and that. From what I know, I don't care about all this. Even the ass. manager doesn't even know. Something else, he forgot to take the yellow file today, I guess. Well, I don't care because they are going to change after TERM 1! Yeah, hoping for that day to come! YAY!

Toot toot toot.

Edit;

ONE MORE THING, MY FACE GROW UNTIL SO MANY PIMPLES! :(
So many liao, still grow. Sadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd until I can die.


Let's just hope everything ends here. ^^




Finally everything's over, I hope. I just hope that I won't have to walk up to the stage again, really. Very difficult to be class manager, I don't like it. Have to do this and do that. What's more, english teacher is like so strict or fierce which ever you want to say. (-.-) Very scary.

I dread going to school everyday because there's no lesson that I like lo. After changing the seats, I dread going to school even more. I have never thought that being a manager was so scary and living school life in fear. I thought being a manager was a easy task for them, now I understand. Stupid classmates who sabo-ed me, hope they rot. Haha, ^^!

Next, been thinking if I should plan how should I get on in year 2009.

1. Tidy my things regularly.
2. To really study for exams, I mean exams.
3. Comeon, be really friendly to everyone.
4. To go out more often so I won't be really afraid of people.
5. NOT BE AFRAID OF HUMANS!
6. Stand straight please please please!
7. Get to 175cm, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
8. Grow grow grow taller.
9. Really to be friendly and friendlier.
10. What else? Everything that I think is bad I need to change.

I think that's all, HAHA! I lost my haloscan code, my webcounter code and the committees list. I hope my teacher won't scold me if she didn't receive the committees list! Good luck JANICELIM! I hate getting scolded lo, so embarrassing lo!

I want........ better not say. Hehe, before I regret. HAHA^^




Since now my laptop is alright and no longer sick as my brother save him from her death! Haha! Reformatted my computer and now there's nothing left inside. So plain, making me so bored. Haiya!*.*

Couldn't find a blogskin that I like so I'm using this for the moment (I guess)

Can't find any energy to blog, so i'll just stop here! Haha!




My computer hao liao! ^^


Fake star star lo these people, why leh? Because they fake star star mah!
Too bad lo, this is your life. Haiya.